I woke up to my morning alarm and rolled my eyes and grumpily rolled out of bed as I looked outside at the perfect “sleeping in” weather to realize I had a full day of work ahead of me. I thought about all the things I could be doing instead of this and in the course of my annoyance my heart stopped and my knees went a bit weak as I remembered a day like today.
~ Twelve years ago I lay awake clinching to my mother’s hand, terrified I would lose her again and overjoyed that I had her for another day.
The day I thought would never come finally came on a day like today. After 3 weeks of wondering if I would ever see you again, 21 days of unfinished meals, and countless times of wishing you would return to me, I finally received the call that made all the crying and the times I came in your room wishing you would be there to tell me everything had been a dream, okay.
I remember the phone call with your voice at the end of the line telling me you were coming home, as I quivered – maybe from crying so hard, and maybe from joy or maybe from exhaustion from leaping around my house telling everyone you were coming home. When you arrived you were dirty and had more duct-take than I would ever wish to see on any human being and I thought for a moment that only a beast could kidnap someone like you and think it was okay to kidnap a person like you. ~
On a day like today I got an opportunity to learn all the things from her I never thought I would get to learn, and years of mother-daughter fights I didn’t think I’d get to have, and many awkward moments when I’d realize I’m turning into you.
On a day like today, waking up early to go to work no longer seems so bad.